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I can’t stop thinking about her
The Struggle of Moving On
I can’t stop thinking about her; she’s always on my mind. As I mentioned in one of the first videos I made when I created this channel, right after being cheated on, I advised never to think about her and always try to focus on something else. Yet, I’m falling into my own trap.
The Trap of a Stationary Mind
I said not to let your body be stationary because when your body is idle, your mind always resorts to what you care about most, which is her — the one who broke up with you or cheated on you. I found myself dwelling on YouTube or Instagram for maybe 2 to 3 hours before going out. During that time, I was suffering, constantly thinking of her.
Dreams and Desires
I took a nap and still found myself dreaming of her after two weeks. After one week of not dreaming about her at all, I had a dream with her and felt terrible. I still wanted to be with her, even after being cheated on. But then I thought to myself: I dreamt of wanting to be with a guy, but when a guy said he liked me, I felt nothing. Yet, when a woman expressed interest, even if I didn’t like her, I still felt some pride.
